If Life gets too Hard to Stand, Kneel

Assalamualaikum and happy Friday, peepz.

It's the first day of April and don't expect me to play April Fool, okay. And don't play it with me. :p

I woke up this morning with heavy head and gastric, like I was drunk last night. Hey, kidding. So I was reluctant to go to class and I continued sleeping. Lame excuse? You name it.

I'm currently at home with a tired body. It's such a hot day today and I'm hoping it'll rain tonight.

This whole week is quite tough for me. Food Microbiology subject is literally killing me. I gotta be honest to say that I hate that subject. But it's too late to say it and I know I shouldn't hate it. Urgh. I can't help myself to sighing every time the subject hits my brain.

Now I'm so glad to be home!

Mummy's cook, spending time with family, and my kittens. Those are things that could erase my intense feelings. As a song goes, "..I'm coming home, tell the world I'm coming..let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday..I know my kingdom awaits me and they've forgiven my mistakes.." (Coming Home by Diddy)

And I had a great lunch today with Ifo, mummy, sister and niece at Grace Point. I've been craving for grill chicken chop and it was really awesome.

By the way, there are some shocking news I heard and read recently. The most recent was yesterday, when my house mates' room was broke and entered and their things were stolen by a thief or two. It was surprising when we saw their rooms was in mess, all the cupboards and drawers left opened, and their clothes and things were splattered everywhere. It's found that their money and jeweleries were gone. Screw the thieves. I just wonder how can they unlock the door and drawers with no single damage left. I start to worry about my room. I won't leave my lappy in the room anymore, it's too dangerous. I hope the ones who are responsible in student affairs will do something to find out the thieves. We don't want it to happen again. I think I should hire the CSI team to solve the case.

This was not the first time actually. It happened in our room in last semester, but it's funny and weird because only foods were missing. Thieves nowadays, unexpected. 

Apart from that, there's another shocking phenomenon this week. I bet you guys have heard it already. It's about a Sabahan student in Sarawak that's committed suicide by making fatal leap into a lake on 30th March 2011. You can read the whole news here. 

I think I've ever seen this guy before but I barely know him and I never spoke to him. He's in the same batch with me during matriculation study at Labuan. I heard that it's depression that made him leap off into the lack and killed himself by drowning. Well, we don't know what is the exact reason and it's not our business right.

Yeap, suicide shouldn't be an option and it's the most sinful thing in the world. By doing it shows that we give up on life. But we're not here to judge. I've read several blogs criticizing and insulting the guy and his action. Some say he's stupid, out of mind, crazy and so on. Let me ask you, are you perfect enough?

Look this way, you might say he's sinful but it's not our job to state how huge someone's sin is. We don't have any slightest idea what have he went through in his life.We never know how hard his life is. 

He wrote his last words in his blog and I've read it. It's so sad. When I read the previous posts of his blog, I can see that life seemed hard for him. He had really rough times. And who knows if he had a secret that he had been holding on to for a long time, and there's no one he can talk to. You don't know, so why you want to talk bad about him?

Don't judge others by which path they've chose. We're not God. Just pray for him and pray for ourselves to have more faith. 

I take this tragic story as a lesson for myself. I sometimes can feel the real pressure and stress. But I never let myself being alone because I know it would even makes me more depress. So I pray to God, and I look for someone to talk to. Ifo is the first person I can confide in. So I talk, I tell him the problems that got on me, I ask him for advice, then I feel better. There's no such thing as a second chance to live. We live only once. So I don't want to waste it just like that.

And for you, instead of judging others, why not helping friends that are sad and in trouble? They need you. Just lean your ears, listen to them, talk nicely and advise them. Easy huh. You would have a magical feeling when you made someone's day even a smile. 

Whereas for those who have troubles and almost give up, especially to Muslims, look up the sky and remember that we have Allah. I'm not good enough to give a motivational advice, I just want to share what I've learned from my parents. Remember the loved ones, parents, siblings, friends, teachers and lover. We're not alone. 

Okay now I want to cry. :p

Bare in mind, loneliness is a choice. Life is a gift from God. Have faith.

Peace ^^

xoxo