Assalamualaikum and happy Monday.
My house is back to be quiet again. My sisters and their kids left this morning, and the rest went off to work and school. While me, got stuck alone at home with all books and notes. Now I'm feeling extremely dizzy.
Well I'm not pretty sure how do I feel right now. Today's seemingly to be a long day. There's a time when I felt like I want to leap off from the Angel Falls at Venezuela and sometimes I felt like I want to scream my lungs out at the highest peak of Grand Canyon. Some other times it's like I want to go to a club and do the mosh pit.
Crazy as it sounds. On the other hand, my positive thought said that I need an uplifting jacuzzi with warm lavender water bath.
As for the record, my head is currently a horrible place to be, and this is not the first time.
Maybe I'm just stress. Hey, there's only a week left before siting the final exam. I only got a week to prepare everything. It's not that I'm doing the last minute study. I did start doing revision since couple of months ago, but still I feel it's not enough yet. All these times I thought I'm a cool person that not being too concern about study. But I'm not that cool. Only now I can feel the real intense. The final exam that's getting closer is such a depressive stuff.
Or maybe I feel so alone. I thought listening to music can boost my study mood. It works, slightly. Still I feel like my surrounding is as silent as graveyard I can even hear the wind.
I keep changing the songs in player. I keep listening to Like A Virgin by Madonna over and over again.
I couldn't text or call Ifo. I don't want to disturb his study week. Sometimes I wonder if he thinks about me today or he just focus on study instead.
Or again, maybe it's the unhealed ulcer in my mouth that makes me so down today. It hurts and I have to chew food carefully. So not ideal.
Finally, of all things, when I sum up, perhaps I'm just having a mood swing, since I'm on my period and it's the first day. I guess that my emotions are unstable and uncontrollable. Ugh.
Since there's no one I can talk to right now, I just confide in my blog. It's like a diary to me, a loyal friend. Writing out all my heart-monologue scripts is a relief. Better than never huh.